Chapter 16 - 15:Feelings
(Friends, I apologize for the quality of this chapter. I was very tired and exhausted today, so there may be some unnecessary drama or nonsensical events in some parts.
I apologize again.)
"That suits you very well, my Lady," Maria said. Morrigan were trying on the clothes they had received. Many maids were bustling around the room professionally.
Morrigan had decided to wear something simpler instead of the outfit she had commissioned from the tailor Amelia, following Thomas’s advice.
Although red, green, and yellow were suggested, Morrigan was not satisfied. On Maria’s advice, she tried on a navy blue outfit that highlighted the blue color of her eyes.
The dress, made of chiffon fabric, had a belt around the waist, and a blue necklace was added to further accentuate Morrigan’s eyes.
"You look beautiful, my Lady," Maria, captivated by Morrigan’s beauty, could not help but be as impressed as the other maids.
A slight smile formed on Morrigan’s lips. Although she usually favored black, she found herself liking this blue as well, and it had already become her second favorite color.
"Still, perhaps we could use more jewelry, my Lady."
Morrigan nodded; she had ordered many pieces of jewelry. The gold jewelry was carelessly tossed on the bed, even the least valuable piece being enough to buy a plot of land.
"This might work, my Lady!" Maria exclaimed excitedly as she showed the jewelry to Morrigan.
Maria presented Morrigan with a necklace—a large sapphire pendant on a delicate silver chain.
Even Morrigan admired the design.
The sapphire had a striking blue color and was framed by small white diamonds, creating an elegant appearance that made some of the maids hold their breath in awe.
There were also earrings.
Drop-shaped sapphire earrings, in a shade of blue that perfectly highlighted her eye color.
Morrigan now understood why Thomas had been so confident when choosing these earrings.
The upper part of the earrings featured sapphires surrounded by small white diamonds, creating a refined look as they sparkled in the light.
"Thomas really has an eye for beauty," Maria said in amazement. "These earrings will make your eyes stand out incredibly."
Morrigan nodded and looked at the bracelets. One was a silver bracelet adorned with rows of sapphires.
Each sapphire was surrounded by small diamonds and meticulously placed around the bracelet.
Morrigan put on the bracelet, along with the earrings and necklace. The earrings, in harmony with the navy blue dress, looked incredibly elegant and stylish.
"You’ll make everyone envious there, my Lady."
As Morrigan examined herself in the mirror, she gently touched her hair, feeling satisfied. "Is this what you meant when you said the girls should take care of themselves?"
Maria smiled and nodded gently, a faint smile on her lips. "Yes, my Lady. How do you feel now?"
Morrigan looked at herself in the mirror thoughtfully. This was the first time she had dressed up so much; normally, she would see these things as unnecessary and wasteful, but now she felt satisfied, even happy.
"Weird, but I feel good," Morrigan said calmly. "It still seems irrational to me, but I feel satisfied. It’s very confusing."
Morrigan looked at Maria in the mirror with a blank expression. Maria appeared thoughtful for a moment before saying with a small smile, "My Lady, you always act with reason, don’t you?"
One of Morrigan’s eyebrows raised in surprise. "Isn’t that the right thing to do?"
Maria shook her head firmly, "No, my Lady. You’ve become so accustomed to logic that you’ve buried your emotions deep down."
"There’s not always a need to seek logic, my Lady," Maria said. "Sometimes we must turn off our logic to have fun."
"What do you mean?" Morrigan asked as she began removing the jewelry. The maids worked diligently, returning Morrigan’s jewelry to their boxes. "Why should I have to do that?"
"Because everyone has the right to have fun, go out, and buy jewelry," Maria said firmly. "You need to learn the fine line between logic and emotion, my Lady."
Morrigan thought seriously about Maria’s words. She didn’t understand why emotions were important, thinking of the overly emotional princesses in classic fairy tales.
This was normal for Morrigan. Since the age of six, she had learned from fairy tales and knew the difference between tales and reality.
To Morrigan, a tale and a novel were the same. Both were products of imagination, but they contained some life experiences within them.
Even though Morrigan appeared intelligent, cold, and strong on the outside, she was pure, innocent, and vulnerable on the inside.
While most women wanted to be princesses in fairy tales, Morrigan wanted to be a knight, though that dream had faded as she grew up.
When Morrigan started living in an unfamiliar mansion at the age of six, she wanted to be like the undefeated knight in the stories to ease the feelings of loneliness, sadness, and weakness.
Eventually, the loneliness, sadness, pain, and helplessness turned into depression, sadness, and finally, the isolation of herself from everything.
Morrigan unconsciously forced herself to think logically out of fear of becoming emotional again, searching for reasons not to be emotional.
"My Lady, I think—"
"That’s enough, Maria," Morrigan said, cutting her off. "I have to get up early tomorrow."
Seeing that Morrigan didn’t want to hear any more, Maria didn’t want to push her Lady too far.
Ten minutes later, after Morrigan’s bed was prepared and the jewelry was collected, she lay down to sleep.
"Good night, my Lady."
Maria turned off the light and left the room as Morrigan nodded in response.
Just as Maria gently closed the door, Thomas suddenly appeared behind her, making her almost scream, but he quickly covered her mouth with his hand.
"Don’t scream," Thomas said with a small smirk. Maria, blushing with a mix of anger and embarrassment, glared at him. "I’m sorry."
Thomas removed his hand from Maria’s mouth and apologized. Maria refrained from yelling to avoid disturbing her Lady. "Don’t scare me like that, Thomas."
Despite Maria’s anger, Thomas grinned. "I can’t help it; you know I enjoy little surprises."
Maria could only glare at him in irritation. "Very funny."
"You look upset," Thomas remarked, noticing the worry in Maria’s eyes. Maria nodded. "Why is my Lady acting this way?"
"Did you tell Lady Morrigan to act like an ordinary woman?"
"Yes, and what’s wrong with that?" Maria raised an eyebrow, believing her Lady deserved to be happy. "My Lady deserves to be happy!"
Thomas shook his head. "Yes, but my Lady is already happy. Why are you telling her to indulge in jewelry and women’s clothing?"
He spoke as if stating the obvious, but Maria didn’t understand what he was getting at. "What are you trying to say?"
Thomas adjusted his glasses and began to explain. "Lady Morrigan is not someone who will find happiness in jewelry and clothing."
"Lady Morrigan has never received a gift in her life, never had a friend her age aside from her servants, and her only source of knowledge has been fairy tale books."
Thomas’s words cut through Maria like a knife. He continued, "Do you think telling such a person to be emotional is the right thing to do?"
Thomas looked at Maria, and then a smirk appeared on his face. "But keep at it, maybe you’ll succeed."
As he was about to leave, Maria grabbed his arm. "Wait, please!"
"How can I make Lady Morrigan happy?!"
Thomas turned back and looked into Maria’s eyes. When he saw the determination in them, a pleased smile appeared on his face. "It’s very simple."
"Be her friend."
Maria’s thoughts drifted to the time when Morrigan had called her the best friend she ever had.
Even though Morrigan had called Maria her best friend, Maria still continued to address her as "my Lady."
"If you want Lady Morrigan to accept her emotions," Thomas said, "there’s no better way than being her friend."
Maria nodded seriously. She would do everything in her power to help Morrigan accept her emotions.
"I see you understand," Thomas said. "Good. If there’s nothing else, I’m leaving."
"Thank you, Thomas."
Hearing Maria, Thomas smiled nonchalantly. "You’re welcome."
(Time skip, Tuesday morning.)
At 5 a.m., Maria woke up, washed her face, quickly changed her clothes, and tidied up her room.
Starting the household chores promptly, Maria finished preparing two meals, then spent an hour setting the dining table before instructing the Chef to begin cooking.
As the meal was being prepared, Maria noticed that it was already 8 a.m., so she went upstairs to wake her Lady. Gently opening the door, Maria looked at Morrigan, who was peacefully sleeping.
"Caw!"
Hearing the familiar sound of a crow, Maria glanced at Jack. This crow, though it occasionally disappeared, always reappeared suddenly in strange places.
Ignoring the red-eyed crow, Maria called out to Morrigan, "Morrigan, it’s time for breakfast."
Morrigan’s eyes opened lazily, and with tired eyes, she looked at Maria and asked, "Is breakfast ready, Maria?"
"I ordered all your favorite dishes today, Morrigan," Maria replied sweetly. Morrigan squinted her eyes. "You seem a bit different today, Maria."
"I’m always like this."
"Very well," Morrigan said and then looked at her crow. "Seth, where did you disappear to last night?"
The answer to this question was simple. Jack had canceled his Avatar form the moment Morrigan took off her clothes.
Seeing the crow’s strange movements, a small smile appeared on Morrigan’s lips. "Don’t disappear again."
Jack nodded firmly.
"I’m feeling quite hungry today; let’s go eat."
Following Morrigan, Maria, and Jack quickly arrived at the table filled with elegant and satisfying dishes.
Jack greedily dove into his small plate and quickly began devouring the free meal.
"This crow is truly a glutton."
Jack mocked Thomas with his caws. He was merely taking advantage of the free food.
"Caw! Caw!
(Translation: Mind your own business! Four-eyes!)
Thomas realized that the crow was mocking him but chose to ignore it. Morrigan began her meal.
"Even though the Queen’s tea party starts at 12, we need to be there by 11," Thomas said, "I believe you can get ready in two hours."
Maria nodded and added, "The outfits, jewelry, and gifts are all prepared."
Morrigan nodded. "Good, Thomas. Did you find a gift for the Queen?"
Thomas adjusted his glasses, then took out a small box from his pocket. Opening the box, Thomas revealed a pure diamond ring. When Morrigan saw it, she frowned. "Do you think the Queen will accept an ordinary ring, Thomas?"
"This is no ordinary ring, my Lady," Thomas said, and then infused mana into the ring. The ring glowed for a moment, and as Morrigan and Maria looked at it, they felt a pleasant scent spreading around.
"This ring has a magical effect that gives the wearer a lovely fragrance and makes others admire them."
As Thomas explained this, he wore a proud expression. Maria admired the ring. "This is something every woman would want."
"Where did you find this ring?" Morrigan asked, curious about who would sell such a ring. "Just a friend, my Lady. No need for you to know."
Morrigan wanted to ask more, but seeing that Thomas didn’t want to explain, she didn’t press further.
After a while, once Morrigan finished her meal, she returned upstairs to her room to get ready.