Should Have Let Me Die

Chapter 218: That's Not What I Meant...

I closed all the Gates, the troll was dead now, Reginold would be sent back now though. That meant that he would be going after Dave, but he should have had enough time to get more experience. There was no point in worrying about him now, I had my own life here to worry about.

I turned back around and Rena was jogging back over to me.

"Remind me to never get on your bad side! That was violent, whoever that was, they would do well to listen to what you told them," Rena said, coming up to me.

"That guy is the reason we are all in the game, and until we finish it he will continue to try and kill me and my brother. Now, he is gone, so we need to keep on going," I said looking over to the others that were standing at their partitions.

"I think maybe after, we should all sit down and have a big talk about this. There seems to be a lot that we don't know about right now, but I understand that we can't go over it now," Breth called over from his divide.

"Yes, I will explain it all to you guys after. I really should have done this before now, but there has been a lot going on. I have to ask you all not to talk to the others about this, this might be a game, but it is still real life for all of you. You will not be reborn into a body like I was if you die."

Everyone was silent after that, but I knew that the boys understood me, and Buddy would explain it to Moshi. I was pretty sure Rena understood, but new tunnels were opening up at the far ends of each of the sections, so I would have time to explain on the way.

"Looks like we have to separate again, friend. Moshi and I will keep going, see you on the other side," Buddy said with a smile.

That was weird, but then I got a feeling from Buddy that said Moshi had asked him to stop using this form of speaking. She wanted him to talk more and not be so quiet all the time, and I didn't think that was a bad thing. Buddy was a great guy, and the two of them made a good pair, so I was happy to hear that Buddy was making an effort.

Breth and Cable waved to us as they headed into the next tunnel, then I turned back to Rena.

"Ready?"

"Are you going to leave this world one day?" Rena asked as she walked up to me.

"Let's talk and walk," I said, waving her to follow. "Yes, after I bring peace to this world and kill Talon, I and some of the girls will be moving on. Some of them will be staying behind, I can't protect everyone all the time, and I don't want to put my children in danger."

We entered the next long tunnel that was Illuminated with more Lumimoss lighting up our path. Rena remained silent for a while as she walked beside me. I could tell that she was thinking about something, so I decided that I would just wait for her questions. 

After about ten minutes of walking, Rena finally spoke up.

"When you have children here in the game with...I guess one of the girls that aren't from this world, what are they? Like, if this is a game, but you aren't from the game, what does that make your children?"

I stopped walking. I hadn't thought about that. What did that make my children? Kyla, Lydia, Kenos, Fenli, and Graph were all created by me, but I wasn't any different from the girls. 

So, what did it mean? All the girls were sparks of real-life people, but in this game, did that matter? If I had a child with Rena, would it be different than the ones I created with the girls? I had never really thought about it, and I didn't have an answer, but there was one thing that had been in the back of my head since I got my memories back.

"I really don't know. Honestly, I don't think they are any different than normal children. Like I said, while it is a game, this is also our reality, each one of these worlds is a real place and all of you people are real. The outside world no longer exists for me and the others; we are trying to beat the game so we can spend eternity in this game. After we win, all the worlds will be open to us and we will be able to come and go as we please."

"But, does that mean we will always be stuck in this world?" Rena asked.

"Now that is a tricky question and one that has been in the back of my mind for a while. NPC, non-player characters are normally set to a single task, and they will do said job, forever without deviation. Since coming to this world, there hasn't been a single person like that here. You all have free will and if you wanted to after we were done here you could leave and go pursue another goal somewhere else."

"No, I want to stay by your side! Oh! Sorry, I didn't mean"

"Don't worry about it, and it is good that you want to stay with me. I don't want to lose you either, but what I meant"

"Do you really mean that? Sorry! I am having a hard time controlling my mouth right now! I just...I really like this, spending time with you, so...I don't normally act like this, I'm sorry," Rena blurted out and then got very red after.

"Have you been talking to Breth?" I asked, with suspicion.

"Breth? Oh, yes, he has been helping me with training! He is a really good teacher, and a pretty good listener," Rena said, looking away from me.

"Well, I can only imagine what you talked about, but yes, I am serious about wanting you with me! I want all my friends to be with me! Hahaha!"

"That isn't what I meant"

'Ugh, men, you're all so thick it hurts sometimes!' -Trinity.