Chapter 316: My Life Is Mine
(From Blue's Perspective)
"No, Your Highness. It won't be a good thing to leave the magic tower empty. There are guards around it since Luc isn't here. But I still think I should stay here," Ruby said, refusing my offer to stay at the palace. "I appreciate Your Highness's concern. But I really don't want to leave the magic tower."
"Well, too bad. But if that's what you want, there is nothing else to do," I said.
Ruby did not say anything for a while. Thirty seconds passed and then she let out a sigh. "Your Highness worries me a lot."
"I do? Why?" I asked, surprised.
"Your Highness safety, well-being- I am worried about everything. Your Highness doesn't take care of yourself. You are just too kind. I am worried that some bad people will take advantage of you."
"Well, I am not as kind as you think," I said. "You might not believe it, but I slapped someone twice."
"What?!" she exclaimed in shock.
Not many people knew about the incident. But I was sure that if someone heard it, they would have the same reaction.
"See? You can't believe me, can you?" I chuckled.
"Really? Who did Your Highness slap?" she asked.
"That's a secret, but someone you know. Anyway, you should go back. It's late. Try to sleep right away. Or, you might get a headache," I said.
"Yes, I will go back now. But a slap and Your Highness...? Oh no, two slaps... Ha, I will just go back. Take care, Your Highness, and good night."
"Good night."
After Ruby went back, I waited for Dem. I changed into my nightgown and I walked around the room a bit, then went to the balcony, but he still had not returned. I got tired and came back to sit on the bed.
"Come to Mommy, Sapphire."
Sapphire always came over to me whenever I called. She was licking her paws, sitting on her little bed. At least, Sapphire was here to accompany me.
"You spend so little time with me, Sapphire. What's wrong? Are you mad at me?" I muttered, kissing Sapphire all over.
She only let me kiss and hug her. But when others tried to do it, they would end up getting scratched. It must be because of the bond we had.
"You are living a good life now, you fucking bitch?"
I jumped up at the familiar cold voice and looked around the room. But no one was there. I could swear I heard something and it was his voice.
"What did you think? You are worthy of this? Just because you became that man's plaything?"
'Draven?'
"I am not his plaything. I am his wife," I snapped at the voice.
There was no doubt. Someone was speaking. Precisely saying, Draven was saying those things.
"Wife? Pfft! Don't make me laugh," the voice laughed mockingly. "How could you even dream of something like that? He is going to use you and then throw you away when he is done with you. You think someone like him will ever consider an ugly bitch like you as his wife?"
"You don't know anything..."
"Oh, really? I don't? Why don't you think about it yourself? Can someone like you even be worthy of someone like him?"
'What?'
"Are you?"
'Am I?'
What was I even thinking? Dem said I was his equal. Everyone said so. I could not give in to this bastard's word.
"You know what, Draven? Just fuck off and die! I don't care! You are just a piece of shit! What will you know or understand about us? Someone as dimwit as you cannot possibly understand me or my family," I yelled.
Sapphire hissed loudly, but not at me. She was looking around as well. It was another proof that there was truly a voice and it was not just my imagination.
"You must be thinking that it's all a dreamlike reality. But soon, you will feel the feeling of being abandoned by the one you love. Oh, what a love you have for him! You will be blaming that now. Haha, trust me, I will be laughing as I watch you suffer and cry your eyes out with nowhere to go, you bitch!" he sneered.
"So, what if he abandons me? It's not like I will die because he left me," I said, raising my voice. "My life is mine and it doesn't depend on anyone! I love him and I believe that he will never leave me. But even if he does, I will just feel betrayed and lost for a while. It won't make me die or lose myself!
I can take care of myself just right! I have a life now! You think I will let that go so easily? Let him leave! I don't care! I can live by myself if I have to!"
I panted. I only breathed in and out sharply. The voice did not come back. I could not hear it anymore.
"Haa... But... he won't leave me, right? He said he loves me... He said he can't leave without me... It can't be a lie...
Why would he even lie? He said he will tie me up if I try to leave... Then... I can also hold onto him if he tries to leave, right? It's okay for me to think of not letting him leave, right? That's right.
I won't let him leave me... But the question is- will he even try to leave?"
I petted Sapphire on the back since she had calmed down as well. I did not know where that voice come from. Draven could never be here and it was not my imagination. Sapphire heard it too. At least, that was what I assumed. I had a feeling it was one of my father's tricks.
If he was planning to damage my mentality, I could not confidently say that he was failing.
*clack*
"You are back?" I exclaimed, standing up. Sapphire hissed at me because I had completely forgotten about her and she fell onto the bed.
"Yes... Oh?"
I literally jumped on him and hugged him tightly, wrapping my legs around his waist. I felt a sense of relief. What was I even worried about? Was I worried that he might not come back to this room?
'But he is the King. Where will he go if he doesn't return to the palace?'
"Did you miss me this much?" he chuckled. "Though it's not been too long, I still missed you. But I thought it won't be the same for you."
"No, I missed you," I said, sobbing. "I missed you so much."
"Darling? Are you crying? What happened, sweetie?" he asked as he tried to pull back from the hug, but I did not let him.
"I just missed you..."
"Did you cry because you miss me?"
"Hmm..."
"I am here. So, don't cry anymore," he said comfortingly.
He brought me to the bed and placed me gently on it. Sapphire ran away somewhere. I pulled him by the front of his coat, not letting him get up.
"Have you eaten?" I asked.
"Yeah. The duchess said you wouldn't like it if I don't eat," he said.
"Yes, I told her this," I said. "Since you have eaten, I think it's fine."
I pulled him towards me and pressed my lips to his. He was surprised but did not stop kissing me.
"Haa..."
He smirked and started taking his coat off as he kept his eyes on mine. "You know, I would have wiped your tears and held you until you fall asleep since you are sad. But it seems you want something else. And as you can see, I am not someone to say no to this."
I tried to wait patiently while he took his coat off and then her inner attire. But it was taking too long. I could not wait and started helping him myself by unbuttoning.
"You can't wait?" he asked and I shook my head. "I am losing my patience too. After all, how can I manage to stay sane when my darling wife is so desperate?"
As soon as his upper attire was taken off, he started kissing me while one of his hands found my breast and the other one was around my waist to pull me up.
"Mm... Hnn..."
I bit his lips. He pulled back and licked the blood that trickled down from his bottom lip. He started kissing my neck while fondling my breast.
"Ah... Huh..."
"Your breast is very soft, huh?" he chuckled and kissed my nipple from over the nightgown. I would have preferred he took it off.
My breasts had grown a lot. But I would have liked it if they grew a bit more. I did not want huge breasts, just big enough to satisfy my mind.