Untamed: The Alpha

222 I WANT TO BE WITH YOU

“Do you feel hurt somewhere?” Chaos asked, he put away the book in his lap that he didn’t read at all. He watched over Zuri while she was sleeping, just in case something happened to her, since she didn’t wake up for a long time.

Chaos then took a seat on the edge of the bed, but maintained a comfortable distance between them. His dark blue eyes met her hazel ones and he could tell there was something bothering her.

“You can see,” Zuri blurted out. She frowned a little, as she pushed herself up, so she could sit and was on the same eye level with him.

“I can see,” Chaos confirmed her words.

“How?” Zuri felt the question was odd, but there was no way she would know if she didn’t ask him directly.

When his eyes were black, he lost his sight and when his eyes were red, he was completely out of his character and became something more ferocious and dangerous...

But now, his eyes returned to the dark blue color that once Zuri loved.

“I killed almost half of the city, there is no way there isn’t a single shattered soul of mine among those thousands of people,” Chaos said in a matter of fact tone.

Aside from those people that had been killed by all those supernatural creatures that ran rampant, it was safe to say that Chaos was responsible for half of the deaths that occurred that night.

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“I thought that was only a dream,” Zuri mumbled, she looked out the open window, from where she could see the old tree. “You look almost normal.”

“I have never been normal,” Chaos stated.

Zuri shifted her gaze from that old tree and the streaming light of the morning sun to the man, who was looking at her.

“You look normal for me now,” Zuri commented.

Zuri felt something strange about Chaos right now, because everything between them had changed. She was no longer an eight year old child and Chaos could see now how much she had grown from that little girl, who always tried to find a way to be close to him, even to the extent of sleeping in the library, since that was the place that Chaos loved the most.

On the other hand, Chaos said nothing, so the silence that ensued after that was a little bit awkward for Zuri, but Chaos seemed to not feel anything about it.

“So, those shattered souls helped you gain your strength back?” Zuri tried to find a topic to talk about, so they wouldn’t end up being silent again.

Hearing that, Chaos finally averted his gaze and then stood up, only to get a glass of water for her, because he could hear how scratchy her voice was and she looked tensed.

“Yes.” Chaos handed the glass to her and tried not to touch her.

Zuri mumbled a ‘thank you’ as she received the glass and finished half of the water. She cradled the glass in her hands when Chaos sat down again. He was not too close, so Zuri didn’t feel like she was being crowded by his presence.

“What will happen if you don’t get your shattered soul?” Zuri asked him again, she was staring at the half full glass of water in her hands, as if it was the most interesting thing to see for her right now. “Will you die?”

Knox had laughed and snorted at her when she asked the same question. He had told her that there was no way that Chaos would die.

Something like him, or a creature like him, wouldn’t die. However, it didn’t satisfy Zuri, that affirmation didn’t answer her question.

“No.”

“What will happen?”

Chaos didn’t answer that immediately and this lack of response made Zuri lift her head to look at him and his slightly furrowed brows greeted her searching gaze.

Was it a complicated thing to answer?

“What will happen?” Zuri repeated her question again, her heart beating so fast, as she already thought the worst possibility.

“What happened four days ago, that is what will happen.” Chaos’ voice was so calm when he explained briefly what it meant.

Apparently, he needed his shattered soul to control the dark side of him. The strength that he gained from the shattered souls helped him to reign in that blood thirsty desire for destruction.

And that answered the question how he got so much power to ruin the whole city when a moment before that happened, he was barely able to support himself.

Chaos didn’t become weak because he didn’t get his strength from his shattered souls, but because he was holding back his dark side and once he lost his grip over it, the destruction of Fokosa city was just a small price for it.

He could be more destructive than that and Zuri believed he could.

“You need your shattered soul to prevent yourself from killing people,” Zuri stated and was surprised when she heard how Chaos chuckled lightly at her comment. “What?”

“You make it sound less horrible,” Chaos replied.

Zuri didn’t know what that meant and how the dynamic of the relationship between the two of them changed, but the next thing she said was something that she had thought about for a long time.

“I want to help you to find all the shattered souls,” she said.

“Because you are afraid that I will erase the whole human race?” Chaos stood up. “You have grown up to be so noble.”

“No.” Because I want to stay with you.

However, Zuri didn’t say those last words out loud. She kept it for herself. Her need to be close to Chaos had not changed and if her feelings toward Chaos eight years ago were innocent, this time it was different.

She knew it was different. It tended to be different.

“Why?”

“I want to help you. Treat this as me paying you back for what you have done for me.”

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